Sometimes I get inside my head and I can’t get out. I get obsesses with a particular train of thought and it keeps spiraling around my brain. My attempt today is to unravel the spiral.
Last month or so, we found out that my Father has prostate cancer. (Note to my IRL friends who are friends with my Mom on Facebook- don’t talk to her about it because my Father doesn’t want to be the center of attention….)
Now the cancer itself is not going to kill my Father. As the Doctor put it “he might die with prostate cancer, but not of it.” Next week he starts his radiation treatment. But let’s face facts: he’s 80, with diabetes and a bad heart. And his already depleted body is about to be hit with more stuff.
I know I see the writing on the wall…
Which has been in my head.
How do you come to terms with the death of a parent?
Most of my friends have lost their Fathers in the past ten years. I know this is the whole circle of life thing. But knowing it’s inevitable and seeing the inevitability are two different things. How do you deal with endings?
And my daughter is about to go off to college. Another ending.
Yup. My brain got caught up in a downward cycle of things ending. I became hyper focused on endings.
This is not a good thing for your brain.
So- I realized that I have to become focused on beginnings
How do I do that?
I have no idea.
So here’s the plan. Along with my super creative musings about all things, I am also going to write about beginnings. I am going to try to look at things positively as often as possible, (don’t worry- there will still be some rants and complaints in here.) Today starts my new beginning of thinking about what the future holds…..
on another note- I know I had problems with my comment section yesterday. I don’t know why this is happening, but I am going to try to resolve it.