As many of you know, I have a Yorkie. She is extremely adorable and very loving and sweet. She is also tenacious- she doesn’t give up when she sees something she wants. She is also very excitable and yappy.
Now, as often happens. pets and their owners share some traits. I too an extremely adorable. And tenacious. Excitable. Yappy…. We say the dog has two speeds, off and on- as do I. I am either all in, or asleep…
Now mainly these are not particularly bad traits- just annoying sometimes. And it is often hard to follow where I’m coming from and where I’m going to. I used to have an assistant who followed me around with a notepad and wrote down everything I said. She said that I went step 1, step 2, step 15, step 20…etc, because my mind was working so fast my actual talking couldn’t keep up. I have a friend I email and they laugh because of the amount of spelling mistakes I can make in an email because when I think of something clever my fingers can’t work fast enough to type properly.
As a New Yorker, these traits help- there’s a reason why the phrase is “New York minute”. But even for a NYer- the speed at which I talk is lightening fast. Italksofastthatsometimespeoplecantunderstandathingthatimsaying. Now my friends- well- they’ve just gotten used to this by now. And my daughter talks as fast as I do. This is actually an issue because people will often think we are nervous, but we’re not nervous- we just can’t wait to get things out. (our family joke is lose your breath, lose your turn)
By now, I’m guessing you’re wondering why I am writing about this today. Well, here’s the thing: I am thinking of starting a podcast. I’m considering doing book reviews, but you know, my kind of book reviews. I know I can write them, but I think my personality (not my accent) is suited to talking out a really humorous review. I think sometimes you just need to hear the inflection.
I realize the speed at which I do things is part of my personality- part of who I am. But I also know that I have to turn it down 5 or 30 notches in order to be understood. So I’m at a standstill- if I want to try this podcast thing I need to sloooow dowwwwwwn. I just don’t know how to take a breath- to pause. I don’t exactly know what is between on and off.
What is the middle ground, and how do I get there?