So where were we……
I am logical.
Fear is illogical.
Therefore, I am not fearful.
Ha- said the theorem guy.
I am afraid of heights. More specifically, I’m afraid of falling. As I am not a window washer or a trapeze artist, this does not impact me in my daily life. I am able to food shop, clean (though my cleaning skills are debatable), walk my dog, etc- with no blips. The time when this fear rears its angry head most often is when I am on vacation.
And you know I was just on vacation.
Let’s start with the lighthouse. We went to visit Nobska Lighthouse in Falmouth. It’s a beautiful, old lighthouse (1876), which normally affords a wonderful view of Martha’s Vineyard. Due to technical difficulties (fog) we were unable to see MV, but it didn’t matter- the whole setting was beautiful. Nobska is officially 40 feet high( though our guide told us 39- so, if I’m wrong- sorry- but I’m not fact checking any more than this)
Yeah, 40 feet, which is probably as tall as a giant, but not particularly tall.
So we climbed the first set of 15 steps. 15 spiral steps. Did I tell you I don’t love tight spaces either?
And I made it to the first level. Whew.
Then I realized there is a ladder to go up to the top- to see the actual light. A tight, spiral ladder with very steep steps. Miniscule handrail. Ummmm- do I really need to see the light? Could it be any different than the lightbulb in my house? But- I waited for twenty minutes for the tour of the lighthouse, and the tour is only given once a week……so…….well I went up the ladder.
And I’m at the top- and the guide is telling us the history of the lighthouse- but I’m only half listening, because I am fixated on the tight, spiral ladder that is going to lead me down. And the big first step. With the tiniest of handrails. That I have to descend backwards. While I’m afraid of heights, tight spaces and falling.
Now I will freely admit, that this was not particularly high, nor tight, nor scary. The ladder to the top was maybe 8 steps. Toddlers and people in wheel chairs were able to handle this (no- not really- but you get the idea of how simple and non- terrifying this was)
And I told our guide that I might be joining him for the rest of the day, because I didn’t think I’d make it down. I don’t think he was amused.
I took off my flip flops, because no one was meant to scale tight spiral ladders in flip flops….said a prayer to every deity I could think of….held onto the little handrail for dear life- and climbed down the arduous 8 steps.
When I made it to the bottom, shoes in hand- I high fived every one. Not really- they were too busy thinking I was crazy. Or they’d gotten a peak at my bright pink thing as I was descending the ladder. Probably a combination of both, because as I was scared of this lighthouse, the sight of my backside in a hot pink thong is even scarier.
And now you’re thinking- how did someone who is afraid of heights go hiking in Acadia…..
Tune in tomorrow for the second part of my fearful life…..